Sad Day in Katyland

Well, I made the decision today to go ahead and give Roman formula at daycare. I'm having trouble (1) pumping enough milk and (2) doing my job, since I pump during my planning period. I could give up my lunch like I did last year, but I really enjoy my time with my colleagues. Plus, my friend Jody has a different planning period this year, so lunch is the only time we can catch up.

I made a goal to nurse Roman exclusively for one year, but school is kicking my booty right now. Theoretically, I could start pumping again when things settle down, but let's face facts. Pumping is a pain! I am really tired of it. I just feel terrible because I feel like I'm letting Roman down.

I take comfort in 3 things:
1. I'm still nursing him when he is with me.
2. He's on solid food, so he's not taking as much milk as he used to.
3. Ava was on formula at daycare starting at a younger age and she seems healthy.

Still, I wish I could have reached my goal. I was embarassed to be seen buying the formula. I wanted to tell everybody that I had nursed him exclusively until tomorrow, and that I'll still be nursing him at home.

I know Roman will like the formula because twice they had to make him a formula bottle at daycare because he ran out of breast milk. They used a container of sample formula I had received in the mail. I just bought that same kind today, since I know he likes it okay.

If I was a stay at home mom, I would have had no problem avoiding formula. So, now I'm even more frustrated with my job!

I'll get over this, I know. I guess it isn't worse than feeding him a bottle of water or juice. It has more nutrients than those two, I guess. I don't give him just juice or water yet because I feel that he needs the fat and protein found only in milk/formula.